Remembering only the good moments

Lately, I have found myself reflecting on my life at night while I begin to fall asleep. I am in the 'almost asleep but not fully asleep' phase, so I feel like I am dreaming but I'm not fully there yet. I tend to think back to my life in Boston first, for odd some reason. I think of my job at Tavern in the Square and I can feel myself somehow feeling sad. Missing it. I think back to the Fall in Boston and how beautiful it was during that time of year. Every memory I seem to have of Boston during this time is a fond memory and it makes me really miss it. This is just one of many things I have been thinking about lately, it's not always about Boston. And then, I realized something odd. I never think of the bad things that went along with Boston; simply the good memories. 

Boston sure was pretty!

Sometimes, I wish I wrote down all of the bad things I disliked about my past experiences for this exact reason. This is a huge reason why couples break up and get back together down the road. When they reflect on the relationship they forget the bad times and only remember the good times. Is it our subconscious that suppress the imperfect moments and leave the perfect moments on the, much more accessible, surface? 

Don't get me wrong, I would MUCH rather remember the good times over anything else but there are periods where maybe, I just need reassurance that the bad times happened and that is why I am leading the life I do today.  I don't regret anything in my life and I truly believe that everything happens for a reason.

Life has twists, turns, and unexpected winds but I revel in my own willingness to guide myself toward life's more rewarding moments. 

I also feel like I have lived a mighty life in this, relatively, short amount of time. (So far!) I have lived in New York, Arizona, and Boston. I have found the love of my life, who I have spent an amazing 4 years with. I have made friends and enemies. And most of all, I have... lived. And although I have done all of these things, I can only be excited for my bright future ahead. So I plan on continuing to live life to the fullest and do what makes me happy. And in the end, I hope to look back on my long life and not have negative memories to surpress. Only positive memories that I reminisce in.